Saturday, Tim's mawmaw was taken off all of her life sustaining aids and passed away around 7pm last night...kind of a relief b/c she has had a rough few months and in lots of pain for over a week. Gavin said, with a half way smile, "Jesus came and took Mawmaw to heaven so she can see Hotdad!" Hotdad is Tim's grandfather who died about 5 years ago. She will be buried on Friday sometime, down in Florida where they are from. We will leave Thursday afternoon to drive down there.
Saturday, Tim's very first Sgt. was shot and killed in a gun battle on Brainerd Rd. in Chattanooga. Too many details to mention here but very very sad and angering. He was taken from his wife and 2 children and hundreds of "brothers". I remember very vividly the first time I met him walking in the hallway of the precinct one evening. His funeral will be Thursday at 1pm in Hixson.
Saturday was only the beginning of the tough stuff. All the processing that has been going on for Tim has been quite overwhelming for me so i am sure it is just too much for him. He is, thankfully, pretty good about sharing with me what he is thinking and feeling. I have learned alot in 10 years also, to just let him talk when he's ready. This is really hard for me. The funerals will sort of be the next thing to process. Im sure things will be said that we "know" but have a hard time understanding. Like God is not surprised by any of this. His timing is perfect. No more tears and suffering., etc. Its difficult on this side to see the positive but their reality is so much better that we could ever dream of for them here on earth. Mawmaw and Sgt. Chapin were both Christians and that is an awesome reality. Just hard to take their loss as our reality.
You may get alot of rambling from me over the next bit. Its just hard to put any thoughts in order...still numb
I will say though that Tim and I laughed last night at the "jackass" videos. I know, they are absolutely terrible but Tim laughed and it was good for us to have some "comic relief".
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